Monday, January 2, 2012
To be honest
23 months ago we made the decision to adopt. We are into month 18 on the wait list. We have been #1 on the wait list for 2+ weeks. The key word in the adoption world is WAIT. There have been so much waiting. Waiting for the application to be approved, waiting for a certain document to come in, waiting on case workers, etc...Wait, Wait, Wait! Needless to say, we were pretty pumped to be at #1 knowing the next little one that comes into HH will be ours. The excitement has left. Now we wait, wait, wait. Last week all case workers were out of the office so we didn't expect a call. I was content. Not anymore. It sounds like there aren't any new babies at HH waiting for a family. :( There have always been certain things that we hope for. For example, when a certain family goes to HH they will take pictures of our little one. So many of this things have come and gone without us being able to act on these plans. I know....it needs to be God's plan, not ours. Even so it is hard for these things to come and go with nothing. Our call could still come soon or it still could be weeks yet. This is hard. We are so close yet so far away. I can't explain on much I long to see our child's face and to find out how old he is. Then after we get to see his face, we wait some more and then wait some more. It is a lesson in patience. Some days I'm content waiting on God's time. Other days...not so much. This mom is past ready to see our baby's face.
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Oh Angie, when I read that note on the group's fb page, I thought of you immediately. You have been such a source of encouragement for others, now let me do the same for you. God is not surprised, nor is His plan delayed by the latest news. In fact, I am learning more and more how He delights in the seemingly impossible--no babies at HH? God smiles because He knows all we see is what is in the natural, but what we can't see, what He wants to open our eyes to is the SUPER-natural. Angels may be escorting your baby to HH right now. Praying that as you WAIT on the Lord, He WILL renew your strength, you WILL mount up on wings as an eagle (think flying to Addis Ababa!)...and you WILL run and not grow weary and you bound up those stairs at HH to pick up your baby and it WILL all be worth it. You are surrounded by a great cloud of witnesses today, in heaven and on earth...THIS is one of the things you were destined for; though it tarries, wait for it because what God has promised He will SURELY do.
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Can't wait to hear the phone ringing and you KNOW I want pictures!:)
~Rory
AMEN to Rory's comment! Hang in there girl! Your baby needs you to wait for him! Yes, my first thought this week was with AGCI opening hoping that you will get a call!! In fact, just think of all the people behind you that are praying too...everyone wants you to have that call (that thought just made me smile). Lots of prayers headed your way for all you need during the famous adoption words, "Hurry up (get that paperwork in fast) and wait"! You're DUE!!!
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